Well, That Didn’t Happen

Hey guys!

I wish I was here to tell you guys that I’m totally back this time. That I’ve been writing up a storm and snapping pics in Sims 4 and I’m the most creative that I’ve ever been. But that would be a lie and I’m no good at lying.

Last time I wrote, I felt like better times were ahead and it turned out to be totally true. I had a busy autumn with a work trip, lots of family and social engagements. My work is going well. The tasks are difficult, but I’m getting the hang of it. My relationship with my boyfriend is better than ever. I love him completely and totally and we’re currently looking at flats so we can move in together. I can honestly say things are looking up in so many ways in my life right now.

So it really sucks to say that I feel like shit. I’m constantly tired and overwhelmed. I always want to call in sick to work for no reason. I spent my days doing nothing but playing the Sims 4 while having no inclination to do anything creative with it. I don’t even take screenshots except to show the boyfriend a funny thing that happened. I don’t even think about stories or making CC or anything of the sort.

I’m finally seeing a doctor about it after feeling tired and down and unable to keep my home clean and tidy for months. It might just be that I need more vitamin D or iron or [insert other vitamin/mineral here], so I’m getting that checked out. But deep down, I think I’m depressed. I used to get up early to write, make CC or take Sims photos. I love cooking good food, baking, learning new things, challenging myself. None of that is happening right now. I started posting gameplay pictures on my tumblr a while ago, but after a little while I realised that it was too hard and I quietly dropped it. I just silently deleted the posts and stopped taking more pictures. I couldn’t bear it anymore. That’s not normal for me. I like sharing my game.

And yes, that means that I probably won’t be back right away. I don’t know when. I’ll need some sort of treatment and hopefully they’ll find something that works, whether it’s just vitamins or anti-depressants. You’ll probably see me popping up when I start feeling more like myself, but until then, I love you all and I miss you and I miss the excitement about sims and sims stories and I hope it’ll come back to me some day.

Love,
Louise